A White Winter

Oh how I wish I was referring to some snow-capped mountains out yonder, and some snow covered hills and plains for me and baby to escape to and have snowball fights in...

But no...

Sadly, I am referring to my newly discovered snow-capped head!

Now I'd like to believe I am still a young'un, but as each day passes, my body and now my hair are quickly disagreeing with me. I'd say about this time, just one year ago, while I was preggo, swollen and ready to pop out baby, I probably had one or two, random gray hairs, very well hidden and buried under my mountain of a mane. Fast forward to now, and I swear, I find a new crop every time I look in the mirror!

This winter brings many gifts, and yes another gift of mommyhood, I now have gone, no not even gray, I've gone white! What is this? Of course, being a new mommy has introduced me to new levels of stress, paranoia, sleep deprivation, guilt and anxiety, but I didn't think that would manifest itself in my hair! Thank goodness for L'Oreal!

A trip to the salon, and "everything's gonna be alright."

This winter also brings insecurity and instability. I got an offer the other day. A job offer. A really good job offer. But baby is still not at the top of the daycare waitlists, they say it still looks like another year or so. So the hubby and I are searching for a Nanny. The thought still frightens me. How can I leave our lil one with a complete stranger? We hardly leave him alone with people we love and trust! And now I am expected to leave him alone with someone I don't know at all? The concept scares me. Do I go back to work? Do I stay at home? Why can't I have the happy ending like Diane Keaton in Baby Boom? The hubby says it'll work out somehow.

For the most part, the hubby is almost always right, so I have faith that "everything's gonna be alright."

And finally this winter brings with it a mobile toddler, he's not a baby anymore! He's a cruising, standing, finding-his-balance, clapping, stomping, almost-walking toddler! So I have a new workout regime...chasing baby. It's a grueling workout that really never ends.

Except for little breaks while baby is sleeping...like now.

So I should go and get some rest...or else...

"Everything's gonna be all white!"